yeah it just keeps getting worse for me... my grades are suffering. i knew this would happen. i absolutely knew this was going to happen. i can't shake this dayum cough. i've been coughing so much that i feel like my guts are gonna come out the next time i cough. i'm trying so hard to be better at things but it just doesn't work for me. i'm so stressed out right now. it's to the point where i just want to give up, i just want to drop everything and quit right now and i can't do that. that's not who i am. you want to know how stressed out i am? today at work some asshole kept calling the store. i knew who it was because i recognized the voice. it was the asshole who calls the store and asks all the information about everything we offer at the car wash, and while i'm explaining all our services, he's masturbating on the phone. you can hear it. he is a sick bastard. i already told him don't ever call this store again or i'm calling the cops. but today he called and i recognized the voice and i hung up right away. he called again and used a different voice, and i didn't realize until he said something and i just screamed and hung up and ran into the office crying over it! i was crying over this stupid guy who was jagging off on the phone, and everyone is like what's wrong with you...why are you crying over this stupid bastard. but i wasn't. it wasn't about him. i was crying pretty bad. i was just so angry and so stressed out that i couldn't contain my emotions anymore. i wanted to scream really loud but i held that in and it came out in crying mode instead. it's just getting harder. i'm trying so hard. then things get thrown at me, and i don't want to push them away because these people trust me and i don't want to break anyone's trust. i try to tell myself that i'm wonder woman and i can handle anything that comes my way. even if it's hard i will make it work. that's what i always tell myself. because my favorite bible verse is Philippians 4:13 I can do all things through Christ who gives me strength. i always think i can do everything. maybe i'm taking that way too literally. | 
so use it i will!!! (that's the yoda in me talking)
hehe not sure where vs 10 stops my memory is fading) : Be strong in the
Lord and in his mighty power. Put on the full armor of God so that you
may be able to stand against the devil's schemes.
